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Well….it’s Valentine’s Day. I WISH I had a sweetheart to share the day…and the night…with; however, I don’t. Until very recently I was dating a man whom I adored. Too bad he didn’t adore me; so I had to let it go. It’s still fresh and it still hurts like hell. I was tempted to text him a “Happy Valentine’s Day” message earlier today, but I thought better of it. A friend told me about a party that’s going on later tonight. I’m thinking about going, but honestly, I’m not sure that I feel up to it. I’m not really the social butterfly and when I’m feeling down, I really don’t feel like being bothered with a bunch of strangers. Truth be told, even when I’m not feeling down, I usually don’t feel like being bothered with a bunch of strangers. On the other hand, I feel like I might as well get out of the house and mix & mingle. Not with the intention of trying to meet someone, but just so I don’t sit in the house and dwell on my recently lost love.

Ending a relationship at any time is painful, but ending one right before a “romantic holiday” is especially difficult. I already purchased personalized presents that I thoughtfully selected and was excited about giving to him. I drafted and re-drafted the message that I wrote inside of the card that it took me several trips to the store to select. (I have a thing about only giving cards that reflect how I truly feel, so in the end, I selected a blank card and wrote my own message.) I had a plan of how we would spend the evening (not the day because he gets his daughter on Sundays.) All of this, only to have everything fall apart, including my heart.

So what becomes of the broken-hearted on Valentine’s Day? Well, I woke up this morning wearing my “Love Bites” pajamas, so what does that tell you? I’m wondering if I should call or text him. Of course not. I’m wondering if he’s thinking about me. Of course not. I’m wondering if I should force myself to go to this dang party knowing that I don’t really want to go. Hmm, maybe. I’m thinking I’ll just stay home. After all, I went out last night to celebrate completing my 30 day challenge, that’s enough for one weekend. Right? I don’t know. I just don’t feel up to all of the pomp & circumstance that goes along with going out – picking out an outfit, doing makeup, etc. I just wanna relax. Oh – and in the words of Jill Scott, “I just wanna be loved. Like everybody else does. I just wanna be loved. I just wanna be loved.”

Be who you want to be today.

…TMR…

This-is-it-mjs-this-is-it-8705441-500-500Last Saturday I went to see ‘This Is It.’ For those who don’t know, this is the movie made about Michael Jackson’s preparation for what was to be his final tour.

The movie brought out so many emotions/feelings/thoughts – happiness, sadness, joy, pain, understanding, inspiration, anger…

Michael was obviously a true professional, a perfectionist and a genius. Some members of the tour were brought to tears when discussing how they felt about having the opportunity to perform with him. I can only imagine how that must have felt to a dancer or singer – being able to perform with Michael Jackson. !!!! Just watching him made my heart jump.

I can’t say this enough – Michael was magical. Just watching him perform on that screen was so moving. Michael was peace. Michael was joy. Michael was love incarnate.  Even when he had to “fuss” at someone, he ended it with “with love.” How beautiful is that? He will forever be missed.  Not just for his talent, but also for his spirit.

Be who you want to be today.

…TMR…